Have I ever mentioned my life verse?

It's John 15:13--"No greater love hath any man than this--that he lay down his life for his friends."

God calls us his friends and he laid down his life for us. How awesome is that!!!! To be a friend of God!!

It's very strange my dear--this dear who I believe is promised--I realize you may never happen in my life, but I'm having faith that somehow you will. You are a desire of my heart. But daughter, let me get back to the verse.

I have the strangest feeling sometimes--the feeling that my return home will reflect this verse through my departure here on Earth. I have the odd feeling that I'm not going to see the days of gray hair. Yeah, it's strange. I do believe I have quite the life left here on Earth though--for I know that God has called me and saved me from the destroying hand of Satan for a reason and much of that has to do with my call to teaching and my passion for the church. A passion I realized has been subdued as of late. God--may I never lose the passion for the things you have laid on my heart.

Some people freak out if they find out that you think about your death. I don't know why I do--it's just that weird feeling that I'm not going to die of old age, that my death will be sacrificial for love. I don't know how God is going to work--but oh he will. He always has, he is, and he always will. Remember that daughter. God watches over your every step. He guides and he plans, he uses, he is right there with you. Trust in him and you will have peace. Life won't be easy, not by any stretch. But he is always right there with you--bearing the pain too. He is ever and all wise, ever and all-knowing, every and all-powerful. I could go on and on...may you know it in your heart as I do, may you know it more.
- posted by anna @ 12:52 AM

 
Let me tell you some more things about this wonderful things called love.

Romance is the expression of love. Love truly is blind as we become blind to another's faults, to our own desires and wants in favor of another's, and blind sometimes to the rest of the world. Love is real when you spend time with another person, even God, and you become oblivious to the rest of the world--you enter another realm.

Love fills in the crevices of one's heart, of one's entire being. Love makes one complete. It's the realization that you have something you've been missing and longing for all your life.

and how very much this should be our relationship with God. When you are in love with a person, you want to spend every spare moment with him or her. That's what God wants with us; and he wants us to be like for him.

I sit here pondering on how love is an escape in many ways from the real world, it's another world in itself. and I think about how we're learning about myths and fairy stories in one of my classes and the concept of sub-creation. I wonder, maybe we could define love as a myth, a sub-creation of God maybe.

I sit here one month into my junior year of college bearing much responsibility. They say that when it comes to college, you're allowed to pick two out of three: social life, school, and sleep. Sometimes that seems so true. There is such a thing as doing too much. There are many things to be involved in, many opportunities to serve God and others--but we can only spread ourselves so thin. We are called to serve others, but we must remember that God has blessed each of with different gifts and called us to different places and different jobs. We can't do everything. Right now, I'm a manager at the coffee cart, a grader, a chaplain, a girlfriend, a friend, a sister, a daughter, a Christian, a student. God is providing for me to get what I need to done and to survive through it, but I'm learning that I'm doing too much also. I can't put as much effort as I really want to and should into something like the chaplaincy because I've got other things I need to take care of and do with the other hats of mine. I don't spend as much time with God like I should or want to. God is our priority. Everything else goes through him, is from him, is of him, is with him, is for him.
- posted by anna @ 5:04 PM